:WORDS: KOLBI WAS SAYING
HI (SHE LOVED WAVING HI AND BYE)
MUM
HI (SHE LOVED WAVING HI AND BYE)
MUM
MUMMA
DA (DAD)
NO NO (WITH HER FINGER POINTING UP & DOWN)
AGE (TAIGE)
Y (KYSON)
PAPA
SHS (SHOES)
SHE LOVED SHOES, SHE DEF. HAD A SHOE FETISH
HORSE
DOG
DUCK (AND THEN SHE WOULD QUACK)
BALL
BAOON (BALLOON) WE WOULD PULL UP TO LITTLE CESAR'S AND SHE WOULD START YELLING BAOON AND AT WALMART SHE WOULD POINT OUT ALL THE BAOONS!
NA NIGH ( NIGHT NIGHT)
SHE BLEW KISSES
SHE DID KNUCKELS
MY FAV. WAS KNUCKELS AND THEN SHE'D BLOW IT UP
THIS WEEKEND WAS ALOT BETTER THEN LAST! FOR SOME REASON I WASN'T AS EMOTIONAL! I STILL MISS MY "BABY", I DON'T THINK THAT WILL EVER GO AWAY!! BUT, I WAS ABLE TO TALK ABOUT HER WITHOUT THE TEARS FLOWING THIS WEEKEND!
WE TOOK KYSON AND TAIGE TO GO MEET WITH A PHYSCOLOGIST THURSDAY, AND IT WENT REALLY WELL. THE BEST WORDS I HAVE HEARD FOR A WHILE WERE, " THEY ARE BOTH NORMAL, AND THEY ARE BOTH GRIEVING VERY WELL." AHHH HOW REFRESHING TO KNOW THAT BOTH OF THEM ARE GOING TO BE ALRIGHT AFTER GOING THRU SOMETHING SO TRAGIC! DR. JENSEN SAID, 'THEY ARE BOTH GRIEVING IN THEIR OWN WAYS BUT, THEY ARE SHOWING AND TELLING THEIR FEELINGS WHICH IS AWESOME!" HE SAID, "FOR AFTER GOING THRU WHAT WE ALL HAVE BEEN THRU IN THE PAST 5 WEEKS, WE ALL SEEM TO BE DOING WELL AND GRIEVING LIKE WE SHOULD BE." I AM SO GLAD KYSON IS TALKING AND ASKING QUESTIONS ABOUT KOLBI AND ABOUT THE ACCIDENT, IT'S GOING TO MAKE HIM A STRONGER LITTLE BOY! AND TAIGE IS MORE EMOTIONAL I THINK IT'S A "GIRL" THING! BUT, NATE AND I KNOW WHAT TO LOOK OUT FOR NOW AND WHAT TO EXPECT.
KYSON HAS BEEN CAMPING ALL WEEKEND WITH NICOLE'S FAMILY, SO IT'S JUST BEEN TAY AND I. A LITTLE DIFFERENT FROM GOING FROM 2 GIRLS EVERY WHERE TO 1. TAIGE WENT SHOPPING AND OUT TO DINNER WITH NATE AND I ON FRIDAY NIGHT, AND WHILE WE WERE AT THE MALL, SHE BEGGED TO GET EARRINGS IN. SO WE LET HER, SHE DIDN'T EVEN BUDGE WITH THE EAR GUN. SHE DID A GREAT JOB AND WAS SOOO BIG.
THEN SATURDAY NIGHT HAD TO WORK FOR A 1/2 DAY SO I TOOK HER TO GO SEE "SMURFS", SUCH A CUTE SHOW. THEN OF COURSE DID SOME SHOPPING WHILE AT THE MALL AGAIN! LATER THAT NIGHT WE WENT AND BOUGHT SOME PLANTS AND SHRUBS FOR THE FLOWER BEDS. I TOLD NATE I WANT ALOT OF BIG "PINK" FLOWERS NEXT SPRING, IN HONOR OF "KOLBI MAE".
SUNDAY WAS FAST SUNDAY AND BEFORE CHURCH NATE KEPT SAYING HOW HUNGRY HE WAS, I FINALLY ASKED HIM IF HE HAD ATE?? HE TOLD ME, "NO, I'M FASTING. AND IT'S LIKE MY FIRST TIME EVER!" I WAS SHOCKED I DIDN'T KNOW HE HAD NEVER FASTED BEFORE ON A FAST SUNDAY! MY HUBBY HAS TURNED OVER A NEW LEAF!!
A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO ANOTHER MAN IN OUR WARD PASSED AWAY Larry BRAND, WHEN I HAD LEARNED ABOUT HIS DEATH, I TOLD MY NEIGHBOR THAT OUR WARD IS "JINXED". WELL DURING SACRAMENT SISTER BRANDS BROTHER STOOD UP AND BORE HIS TESTIMONY ON HOW PRAYERS FOR OTHERS REALLY DO COMFORT THEM. THE SPIRIT WAS BEATING IN MY CHEST, I KNOW THE PRAYERS, I FELT THE COMFORT OF EVERY ONE'S PRAYERS, I KNOW OUR SAVIOR CARRIES YOU THRU, THRU YOUR TRIBULATIONS. I KNOW THE SPIRIT WAS WORKING ON ME TO GET UP AND BEAR MY TESTIMONY, BUT IN THE BACK OF MY MIND ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT WAS, "I'M GOING TO GET THE LOOKS, I'M GOING TO BALL LIKE A BABY KNOWING I'M TALKING ABOUT KOLBI." SO I SAID A QUICK QUIET PRAYER, ASKING OUR FATHER IN HEAVEN TO HELP ME, IF HE WANTS ME TO GET UP THERE, THEN I KNOW I AM GOING TO NEED THE STRENGTH. SURE ENOUGH AFTER I WAS DONE, I STOOD UP AND STARTED WALKING UP TO THE PULPIT. I KNOW MY FATHER WAS HELPING ME, I HAD SO MUCH I WANTED TO SAY, BEING IN THE BRAND'S SHOES I KNOW HOW THEY ARE FEELING RIGHT NOW. I WAS ABLE TO STAND UP THERE WITHOUT CRYING THE WHOLE TIME, I WAS ABLE TO SAY WHAT I WANTED TO SAY. I KNOW OUR FATHER IN HEAVEN WANTED ME TO GET UP THERE AND I KNOW HE WAS HELPING ME THE WHOLE TIME STANDING UP THERE. I LOVE THIS GOSPEL AND I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR THE KNOWLEDGE IT GIVES US!!!
NATE HAS ALWAYS BEEN A "GOOD GUY" BUT, THAT'S AS FAR AS HE TOOK IT, HE DIDN'T SERVE A MISSION SO HE WASN'T ABLE TO LEARN AS MUCH AS MISSIONARY'S DO. NEITHER NATE OR I HAVE EVER READ THE BOOK OF MORMON ALL THE WAY THRU, BUT NOW THAT IS ALL HE DOES IS READ. HE HAS CHANGED IMMENSELY, HE TAKES CHARGE OF FHE, SCRIPTURE STUDY WITH THE KIDS, AND FAMILY PRAYERS. IT'S NOT JUST ME TACKLING EVERYONE TO GET IT DONE. I FINALLY FEEL LIKE I HAVE THE PERSIDER IN MY HOME! HE IS FINALLY TAKING CHARGE. THERE'S ALWAYS ROOM FOR IMPROVEMENT!
KOLBI HAS SET THE BAR HIGH FOR US, AND BY DANG IT, WE ARE GOING TO REACH IT, GRAB HOLD TIGHT AND MAKE IT BACK TO HER. WHAT AN EXAMPLE SHE AS BEEN FOR NATE AND I!
I LOVE YOU "MISS MAE"!!
BALL
BAOON (BALLOON) WE WOULD PULL UP TO LITTLE CESAR'S AND SHE WOULD START YELLING BAOON AND AT WALMART SHE WOULD POINT OUT ALL THE BAOONS!
NA NIGH ( NIGHT NIGHT)
SHE BLEW KISSES
SHE DID KNUCKELS
MY FAV. WAS KNUCKELS AND THEN SHE'D BLOW IT UP
THIS WEEKEND WAS ALOT BETTER THEN LAST! FOR SOME REASON I WASN'T AS EMOTIONAL! I STILL MISS MY "BABY", I DON'T THINK THAT WILL EVER GO AWAY!! BUT, I WAS ABLE TO TALK ABOUT HER WITHOUT THE TEARS FLOWING THIS WEEKEND!
WE TOOK KYSON AND TAIGE TO GO MEET WITH A PHYSCOLOGIST THURSDAY, AND IT WENT REALLY WELL. THE BEST WORDS I HAVE HEARD FOR A WHILE WERE, " THEY ARE BOTH NORMAL, AND THEY ARE BOTH GRIEVING VERY WELL." AHHH HOW REFRESHING TO KNOW THAT BOTH OF THEM ARE GOING TO BE ALRIGHT AFTER GOING THRU SOMETHING SO TRAGIC! DR. JENSEN SAID, 'THEY ARE BOTH GRIEVING IN THEIR OWN WAYS BUT, THEY ARE SHOWING AND TELLING THEIR FEELINGS WHICH IS AWESOME!" HE SAID, "FOR AFTER GOING THRU WHAT WE ALL HAVE BEEN THRU IN THE PAST 5 WEEKS, WE ALL SEEM TO BE DOING WELL AND GRIEVING LIKE WE SHOULD BE." I AM SO GLAD KYSON IS TALKING AND ASKING QUESTIONS ABOUT KOLBI AND ABOUT THE ACCIDENT, IT'S GOING TO MAKE HIM A STRONGER LITTLE BOY! AND TAIGE IS MORE EMOTIONAL I THINK IT'S A "GIRL" THING! BUT, NATE AND I KNOW WHAT TO LOOK OUT FOR NOW AND WHAT TO EXPECT.
KYSON HAS BEEN CAMPING ALL WEEKEND WITH NICOLE'S FAMILY, SO IT'S JUST BEEN TAY AND I. A LITTLE DIFFERENT FROM GOING FROM 2 GIRLS EVERY WHERE TO 1. TAIGE WENT SHOPPING AND OUT TO DINNER WITH NATE AND I ON FRIDAY NIGHT, AND WHILE WE WERE AT THE MALL, SHE BEGGED TO GET EARRINGS IN. SO WE LET HER, SHE DIDN'T EVEN BUDGE WITH THE EAR GUN. SHE DID A GREAT JOB AND WAS SOOO BIG.
THEN SATURDAY NIGHT HAD TO WORK FOR A 1/2 DAY SO I TOOK HER TO GO SEE "SMURFS", SUCH A CUTE SHOW. THEN OF COURSE DID SOME SHOPPING WHILE AT THE MALL AGAIN! LATER THAT NIGHT WE WENT AND BOUGHT SOME PLANTS AND SHRUBS FOR THE FLOWER BEDS. I TOLD NATE I WANT ALOT OF BIG "PINK" FLOWERS NEXT SPRING, IN HONOR OF "KOLBI MAE".
SUNDAY WAS FAST SUNDAY AND BEFORE CHURCH NATE KEPT SAYING HOW HUNGRY HE WAS, I FINALLY ASKED HIM IF HE HAD ATE?? HE TOLD ME, "NO, I'M FASTING. AND IT'S LIKE MY FIRST TIME EVER!" I WAS SHOCKED I DIDN'T KNOW HE HAD NEVER FASTED BEFORE ON A FAST SUNDAY! MY HUBBY HAS TURNED OVER A NEW LEAF!!
A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO ANOTHER MAN IN OUR WARD PASSED AWAY Larry BRAND, WHEN I HAD LEARNED ABOUT HIS DEATH, I TOLD MY NEIGHBOR THAT OUR WARD IS "JINXED". WELL DURING SACRAMENT SISTER BRANDS BROTHER STOOD UP AND BORE HIS TESTIMONY ON HOW PRAYERS FOR OTHERS REALLY DO COMFORT THEM. THE SPIRIT WAS BEATING IN MY CHEST, I KNOW THE PRAYERS, I FELT THE COMFORT OF EVERY ONE'S PRAYERS, I KNOW OUR SAVIOR CARRIES YOU THRU, THRU YOUR TRIBULATIONS. I KNOW THE SPIRIT WAS WORKING ON ME TO GET UP AND BEAR MY TESTIMONY, BUT IN THE BACK OF MY MIND ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT WAS, "I'M GOING TO GET THE LOOKS, I'M GOING TO BALL LIKE A BABY KNOWING I'M TALKING ABOUT KOLBI." SO I SAID A QUICK QUIET PRAYER, ASKING OUR FATHER IN HEAVEN TO HELP ME, IF HE WANTS ME TO GET UP THERE, THEN I KNOW I AM GOING TO NEED THE STRENGTH. SURE ENOUGH AFTER I WAS DONE, I STOOD UP AND STARTED WALKING UP TO THE PULPIT. I KNOW MY FATHER WAS HELPING ME, I HAD SO MUCH I WANTED TO SAY, BEING IN THE BRAND'S SHOES I KNOW HOW THEY ARE FEELING RIGHT NOW. I WAS ABLE TO STAND UP THERE WITHOUT CRYING THE WHOLE TIME, I WAS ABLE TO SAY WHAT I WANTED TO SAY. I KNOW OUR FATHER IN HEAVEN WANTED ME TO GET UP THERE AND I KNOW HE WAS HELPING ME THE WHOLE TIME STANDING UP THERE. I LOVE THIS GOSPEL AND I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR THE KNOWLEDGE IT GIVES US!!!
NATE HAS ALWAYS BEEN A "GOOD GUY" BUT, THAT'S AS FAR AS HE TOOK IT, HE DIDN'T SERVE A MISSION SO HE WASN'T ABLE TO LEARN AS MUCH AS MISSIONARY'S DO. NEITHER NATE OR I HAVE EVER READ THE BOOK OF MORMON ALL THE WAY THRU, BUT NOW THAT IS ALL HE DOES IS READ. HE HAS CHANGED IMMENSELY, HE TAKES CHARGE OF FHE, SCRIPTURE STUDY WITH THE KIDS, AND FAMILY PRAYERS. IT'S NOT JUST ME TACKLING EVERYONE TO GET IT DONE. I FINALLY FEEL LIKE I HAVE THE PERSIDER IN MY HOME! HE IS FINALLY TAKING CHARGE. THERE'S ALWAYS ROOM FOR IMPROVEMENT!
KOLBI HAS SET THE BAR HIGH FOR US, AND BY DANG IT, WE ARE GOING TO REACH IT, GRAB HOLD TIGHT AND MAKE IT BACK TO HER. WHAT AN EXAMPLE SHE AS BEEN FOR NATE AND I!
I LOVE YOU "MISS MAE"!!