9.20.2011

AHHH I HAVE ALOT OF FEELINGS SWELLING UP INSIDE RIGHT NOW.  I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR MY WONDERFUL, LOVING HUSBAND.  I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITH OUT HIM!  SOME PEOPLE SAY THAT THEY WOULD RATHER LOSE THEIR SPOUSE BEFORE A CHILD BUT, NOT ME!!! I STILL HAVE A SHOULDER TO LEAN ON AND A PARTNER TO GRIEVE WITH, WHO IS GOING THRU THE SAME THING! 
SOMETIMES I THINK THAT OUR TRIAL WAS NOT LOSING OUR BABY, WE KNOW WHERE SHE IS AND THAT SHE'S SAFE.  THAT'S WERE OUR FAITH COMES IN.  I THINK SOMETIMES OUR TRIAL IS GETTING OUR OTHER 2 KIDS THRU IT AND GET THEM BACK TO OUR HEAVENLY HOME.  IT'S BEEN A BATTLE THE LAST FEW DAYS WITH KYSON.  I HOPE IT'S JUST A PHASE OF HIS GRIEVING  OR JUST A 5-6 YEAR OLD BOY THING.  HIS PERSONALITY HAS DEF. TRIED NATE AND I.  I LOVE MY KIDS SO MUCH THAT I WANT THE BEST FOR EACH OF THEM, SO I HOPE NATE AND I CAN PULL THRU THIS STAGE AND OVERCOME WHAT IS THROWN AT US.

WE SURPRISED THE KIDS WITH A PLANE RIDE TO DISNEYLAND, IT WAS A MUCH NEEDED VACATION FOR OUR FAMILY.  THE KIDS LOVED THE SURPRISE JUST AS MUCH AS I LOVED WATCHING THEIR REACTION! (Pictures to come soon!)
TAIGE WAS THE BEST AGE, SHE LOVED ALL THE CHARACTERS AND GAVE EACH OF THEM A KISS AND THEN WOULD WALK AWAY BLOWING KISSES.

THE OTHER BIG NEWS WITH KOLBS. IS HER HEADSTONE IS IN.  IT'S PERFECT!!!  THAT WAS DEF. THE HARDEST THING TO PUT TOGETHER.  I WANTED SOMETHING "SIMPLE" FOR MY SWEET BABY, YET CUTE WITHOUT GETTING FRILLY.  NATE AND I LOVED HOW IT TURNED OUT.
IT'S KINDA HARD TO SEE IN THE PICTURE BUT, IT HAS HER NAME {BIG} WHICH I WANTED THAT TO STAND OUT THE MOST. THEN HER BIRTH DATE FEB.10,2010 AND HER HEAVEN DATE JULY 24,2011
UNDER NEATH THAT IS "OUR PRECIOUS ANGEL BABY" AND THEN DAUGHTER OF NATHAN AND CHELSEY
ON THE BACK....
" I AM A CHILD OF GOD AND I HAVE GONE AHEAD MY
EARTHLY LIFE AS BRIEF BUT OH SUCH PEACE AND
LOVE YOU GAVE. YOU LOVED ME, HELD ME, STOOD BESIDE
ME AND THOUGH I CANNOT STAY.  YOU GAVE ME MUCH
TO HELP ME AND I LIVE WITH HIM TODAY.  I AM
A CHILD OF GOD AND I WILL WAIT FOR YOU. CELESTRIAL
GLORY SHALL BE OURS, IF YOU CAN BUT ENDURE.
I'LL LEAD YOU, GUIDE YOU, WALK BESIDE YOU
HELP YOU FIND THE WAY.
I'LL WELCOME YOU WITH OPEN ARMS
ONE BRIGHT CELESTRIAL DAY."

 TAIGE IS ALWAYS TAKING "DUMB" PICTURES, IT COULD BE OF HER HAND, HER NOSE, THE FLOOR, THE COUCH SOMETIMES I JUST HOPE SHE'S NOT GETTING PICTURES OF MY BUM.  BUT, SHE'S BEEN DOING IT ALOT LATELY SO LAST NIGHT I TOLD HER, "NO MORE" I'M SICK OF HAVING OT GO DELETE 50 AT A TIME.  WELL THIS MORNING AS I WAS GOING TO GO DELETE HER "DUMB" PICTURES, I STARTED GOING THRU THEM AND MY MEMORY STICK WASN'T IN SO SHE HAS TAKEN "DUMB" PICTURES BEFORE WITHOUT MY MEMORY CARD IN AND SHE HAD TAKEN 20-25 PICTURES OF KOLBI.  AHHHH THE JOY, EXCITEMENT AND THE TEARS I HAD THIS MORNING WERE WONDERFUL.  EVEN IF THERE WERE SOME OF THE TOP OF KOLBI'S HEAD OR JUST HER HAND.  KOLBI FOLLOWED TAIGE EVERYWHERE WANTED TO BE JUST LIKE HER.  SO HOW GRATEFUL AM I THAT I KNOW HAVE ALL THESE NEW "DUMB" PICTURES THAT I WILL NOW TREASURE FOREVER!  NEVER AGAIN WILL I GET MAD FOR TAIGE TAKING "DUMB" PICTURES AGAIN!
{LOVE YOU MISS MAE!}